I was trying to find an image that expressed an emotional feeling that came over me when I received some tragic news about a friend of mine. Marilyn and I go back to the 80’s when I was a single mom and she took me under her wing in various ways. She is several years older than I. We’ve kept in touch occasionally over the years. We currently live within two hours of each other. It’s been about four years since I last saw her.
She’d been on my mind a lot lately, so I reached out to her daughter, Ari. Why I didn’t try Marilyn’s phone or write a letter to her home address….I believe is a God thing. Ari told me that her mom has been living in a memory care facility. I was shocked beyond asking for how long. It was like a punch in the chest. Not my friend. Not vibrant, classy, creative, fun Marilyn. Not a disease that steals parts and then all of memory and recall. Not my friend.
I wept, I grieved. I then remembered that our life here is precious, but temporary. Our true home is in heaven. How we end our life here is a mystery…some abrupt, some suffering, some lingering.
It’s already on my calendar in a couple of weeks to contact Ari so she can make arrangements and authorize my visit with Marilyn. I cherish the memories and laughter Marilyn and I shared. I hope to share more with her when I see her, but I also need to be prepared if she does not recognize me. Please Lord, not my friend….let us have one more visit sharing us.
Hug often, tell those you love that you love them…often. God bless you all…..
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The following post was on my Facebook feed this morning and it struck me:
“Lukewarm people don’t really want to be saved from their sin; they want only to be saved from the penalty of their sin…..Ouch!” -Frances Chan
The years since my surrender in 1997 have been filled with a ton of ups and downs, but one thing that did not happen was any waffleing about Whose I am. Before my surrender, I was a chameleon that became whatever my circumstances dictated. I was a people pleaser, didn’t want anyone to not like me, and pursued what I thought was living a “good” life.
Now I find myself in a time where it is eternally critical to stand for my moral beliefs in Christ and not waffle, not be a chameleon, not bend toward pursuing people liking me.
Living for Jesus has been the single most amazing experience! I see Him in my life, I have seen the blessings, I have gone through the ups and downs and know it is for my eternal salvation that I suffer or that I shine. I accept my consequences when I make poor choices, but I also find that they are becoming less since my surrender and being committed to making proper choices.
Pausing, praying, purposefully allowing God to choose my path isn’t always easy, and sometimes even a bit scarey…..but it’s always certainly worth it!
Have a wonderful joy-filled day! Blessings……